I would love to know what causes these setbacks and scary financial beatings I keep getting. I work my butt off, but I earn nothing. I meet these “prospects” who are definitely, surely, certainly, going to order content or a report, or some other thing I do, only to find out they were only curious as to how much it costs — “we haven’t budget for that, but as soon as we have…”
This has now been going on for three whole months, and I’m close to a depression and a financial breakdown — bankruptcy is the legal term.
One startup business whose CEO I thought I could trust had me do a project they apparently couldn’t afford when they ordered, placing my invoice on a waiting list — for 3 months now. Every time I ask about payment, I get the answer: “When we have a client, you’ll be paid. We can’t pay you now as we don’t want to get into more debt.”
I don’t want to pile up debts either. In fact, I’m already living on borrowed time, but does that matter to them? Answer that one for yourself.
Another — large — company randomly extends payout periods. Now it’s 10 days, now it’s 30, now it’s 40… If I mention it to the contact I’m dealing with, the answer is “If you want to work with us, that’s how it is.” Well, actually, it’s not so much that I **want** to work with you guys, it’s that I don’t have another choice.
Writing for magazines? Sure, if it’s for free I’m welcome. One of them even promised me payment before I started, got me to sign an agreement and all. After four months I learned I wasn’t going to be paid at all. Could get a couple of worthless shares in their setup, though. I used to be paid the top fee paid out to freelancers 10 to 15 years ago, both in the UK and in Holland. Those publishers have all disappeared, rationalised, gone belly-up.
Selling my content off IT Enquirer doesn’t work. I’ve tried that 6 years ago. No “conversions” because the topic isn’t sexy enough for the average John Doe out there. It makes you doubt yourself and your capabilities…
I’m really at my wits’ end here. Ready to give up. I have to pay my server tomorrow the latest and I’m seriously thinking about letting it all go — I can’t keep on spitting out the 180 Euros/month fee their service costs me. If it weren’t for the responsibility I have for an 83-years old mother, I wouldn’t hesitate for a second.
I keep thinking things will get better, but they don’t. They only get worse. And I’m all alone. No family to help me out, no friends. Use this as you please — my experience is that you won’t even see it, read it, let alone try to help me.